Sunday, November 24, 2013

Parlant and Other Difficult Things....

Well, it's been about two weeks that we've been here! I'm beginning to get out of my "mission trip" haze and realize that, I'm not going home for a while.... It's a strange feeling, especially when I've been going on mission trips for the past three years, most of which last two weeks. It's about now we'd be heading home, but obviously, that isn't happening. So I'm working on settling in, getting used to life here, and understanding my surroundings. Needless to say it's not always easy.

We started language classes last week! It's been a fun and challenging experience so far... The word parler (to speak) being one of those challenges as well. It's a difficult word to say, and in many ways my frustration with trying to say it (properly in French, where pronunciation is key!) is embodied by the word itself: to speak. I cannot speak here! Not French anyway. And for those of you who have not been in this sort of situation, trying to learn a foreign language whilst in said foreign country, let me tell you, it is INCREDIBLY frustrating! Simple things become nearly impossible because, well, you can't say what you want to say, and you can't understand the other person when they are trying to talk to you.... You feel like a child again, constantly looking around for help (even when everyone you're with is in the same boat...), and feel quite helpless at times because help cannot be found. But in all of this I am also realizing how reliant I need to be on the Lord. Sure, I can learn a language, but if I am trusting the Lord to help me do it, I will be that much more proficient at it.

The longer we are here, the more I can see my own struggles. It's a daily battle not to take things personally, or start picking at myself for offhanded comments others make. It's interesting how when we are put in situations such as this, and things we barely struggled with before become magnified. I know the Lord is bringing these things into the light so that they can be worked through, with Him. I'm a sensitive person, but man has it been amplified this past week! The Lord is definitely working on this area of my life with me. It's not easy, these things never are, but it's so worth it!

We are continuing in ministry here with Matt and Christy, working with them at Evolution 13, a meeting held every Wednesday night for college age adults. It's been great being able to spend time with local Christians our age, worship with them, and see where their hearts are. I am excited to continue working with Matt and Christy as we continue doing outreaches, and have more ministry opportunities with them! Seeing how things are growing and changing here in Marseille is making me really excited for what the Lord has in store!

Thank you for all your prayers and support! The Lord is doing amazing things here, and I am excited to continue sharing them with you!!

Blessings and Love,

Chrissy

Saturday, November 16, 2013

It's Time to Begin....

Our little team: Me, Claire, Linda, and Christine


Well, after all that we've been through, it pleases me to say: I made it! I'm here in Marseille! PRAISE JESUS!!!!!! I have been here a week now, and what a week! Where do I even start? I suppose the beginning would be a good place....

At Notre Dame de la Garde: Linda, Me, Christine, Claire, Elodie, and Ania

Well, this time last week, maybe a bit earlier than this, I boarded a plane with Claire and Linda to fly from Minneapolis to D.C. where we would meet Christine. It was one of the scariest, and most wonderful moments of my life. I knew that stepping onto that plane there would be no going back. I knew that once I got in the air I was saying good-bye to the familiar, to the comfortable, to my old self, and saying hello to uncomfortable, confused, and a brand new person. So I took a deep breath, prayed a quick prayer, and took that step.

Our little group touring the city!

And as the plane was landing in Marseille tears filled my eyes. Because as we flew low over the beautiful landscape, I remembered a promise whispered many months ago, a promise made by a God who never fails to keep the promises He makes: "You will return, this place will one day be your home." and now this promise, that seemed almost impossible when it had been spoken, was being fulfilled. And so, I stepped off the plane, and entered the city that would be my home.

It's been a wonderful week since then. I've done things like learning more about the public transportation system here, get a metro pass, done a bit of sightseeing, met new friends from all over the world, gone out exploring with just my teammates, bought bread (in French! Which indeed felt like an accomplishment since I have not started language learning classes yet!), gone grocery shopping, and many, many other exciting experiences! I have enjoyed my time here thus far, and I have definitely seen evidence of the Lord moving here in this place. Last night we were able to go out and do ministry with Matt, our missionary contact here who we will be doing much of our ministry with. We went to a high traffic area and did worship, prayer, free hugs, and just had conversations with passersby. I watched in utter joy as our French contacts went out and fearlessly spoke with people who stopped to see who we were. They asked questions, listened, and shared their testimonies with people who were interested to hear. I felt so much joy singing at the top of my lungs in the street about the goodness of my God, knowing that even though people may not understand me, I was able to worship and intercede for those that were having wonderful, meaningful conversations with others. It was a beautiful experience for me, and a great way to kick off my ministry experience here in Marseille. 

Christine and I at Palais de Longchamp!

So, to all of you at home, THANK YOU! Your prayers and continued support have been a blessing to me, and gotten me here! God is moving here, and I am excited to keep you all updated on what goes on. My heart is full of new promises from the Lord, which makes me even more excited about what is happening in Marseille! Please continue to keep my team and me in your prayers, as I'm sure that if God is moving, satan will be doing all he can to block what the Lord is doing, but as we know, our God is GREATER than any obstacle the enemy can use. So stay tuned for upcoming news about my adventures here, I'm looking forward to having you along for this adventure!

                                                     Blessings and Love,

The lovely Palais de Longchamp

Chrissy




                                                                                                        

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On the escalator down to the Metro! 

Sunday, November 3, 2013

It's Time to Begin...

Hello all! So this is going to be a mostly informative blog. Things have been pretty crazy around here because we're getting ready to leave! I've been trying to spend time with friends before I go which has been fun, yet sad. So here is all the information! I am at 100% for my funding! Praise God! My plane ticket was bought, and I leave on November 8th at 12:30 PM for Marseille. Claire, Christine and I are the three young ladies that will be going, which we are all excited about! We have started our Bible study class, studying the book of Philippians, which has been SO great! The Lord has definitely been using what we're learning in class to teach me lessons that are applicable outside of class.

Please continue to pray for us in these last few days in the states. We are all going to have a hard time with good-byes, packing, and getting last minute things together. I am excited to share with all of you about Marseille, and what life is looking like when we get there! It still doesn't quite seem real yet, but in some ways it does feel very real.

Thank you all for all of your support in getting me here! I could not have gotten this far without your prayers and financial support! I thank God for all of you, and please remember that I would always love to hear from you, and pray for you all specifically if you wanted to share prayer requests with me, please feel free! I love you all very dearly, and once again, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for all of your support! Stay tuned, because my next post will be written from France!

Blessings and Love,

Chrissy

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Amazing Love....




Hello everyone! So to get you all up to date, here's what's happened this past week: I jumped from 78% to 96% (Whoa! Thank you Jesus!), and our plane tickets were bought! We will be leaving on Friday November 8th. God is SO good! I still have a little ways to go, I need $150 on my monthly, but once that's in, I'll be fully funded! So please continue praying about supporting me!

So here we are. At the precipice. The Lord has done so much in me during my time here at Bethany. I am amazed at how much I have learned, and grown in the past month and a half that I've been here. I have been learning so much about patience, love, and joy. One thing the Lord has really been teaching me this week though is that I am not who I used to be. As I have grown in Him, the old me has fallen away. It's like Paul said: "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come." (2 Corinthians 5:17). I am seeing that be so evident in my life as of late. I've even had people mention to me that they had seen change. It is so beautiful, especially when satan tempts us with the things that we used to love, things we would do, think, or say without giving it a second thought. Suddenly God has brought us to such a beautiful place of healing, and wholeness, a place only He can bring us, and shows us that He has truly changed us. Now what we used to want, we no longer desire to want it. We fight the urge to be the way we were, and we run to the Lord, instead of away from Him. We know that He understands our struggle, and He wants to help us, we just have to be willing to let go of our problems, to stop trying to solve them for ourselves, and instead seek Him, and ask Him to work in the situation, and He always will.

So this is my encouragement to you. Time and again the devil will try to tell you that you haven't changed. He will even use people close to you, people you love and trust, to convince you that you are still the same person, stuck in the same rut of sin, and that you will never change; things will never get better. THAT IS A LIE! You have victory in Christ Jesus, walk it out! Trust the change that you've seen in yourself, the change that the Lord has done in your life! It's real, and you do not have to live in sin anymore! You do not have to be miserable in your thought life, or do things you know are not pleasing to the Lord (and will ultimately hurt you), you do not have to say things you know that you shouldn't just because "that's who you are, and you'll never change." these are all lies that satan will tell you, they are things he's been trying to convince me of in my own life. But satan is a liar, a deceiver who will try to convince you that you do not belong to the Lord. Listen to the Holy Spirit in your life, he will speak to you, He will show you how proud He is of how far you've come. He will continue to work in your heart, and grow you in unimaginable ways. The thing we tend to miss the most about God is that He isn't focusing on our faults, our slip ups, our failures, but in fact He is cheering us on in the ways that we please Him, He is wanting to help us go further in our walk with Him, He is so incredibly proud of you. So never ever forget, the Lord is working in your life, and He is so pleased that you are willing to fight so that you can grow, and learn more about Him, and the amazing love that He has for you.

Blessings and Love,

Chrissy


Sunday, September 29, 2013

Waiting Patiently....

Hello everyone! My sincerest apologies for not writing sooner! It's been a hectic month, and things have been pretty crazy! I'll start with news: 1. I got my visa! Which was super exciting! Claire also received her visa later that week, after a very interesting trip to Chicago (which included some delicious deep dish pizza!). 2. I am about 76% funded! Yay! I still need about $900 for set up, and $600 in monthly pledges. 3. I was approached by a new friend, Candy, who is helping me do a candle fundraiser to raise the rest of the money I need! It's such a great and exciting opportunity! If you're interested in helping me financially (and getting a little something extra in return!) Please check out the link at the bottom of this page! 4. My team has shrunk DRASTICALLY! We are now down to three team members: Christine, Claire, and me! I am excited to share this experience with these two wonderful women! 5. My classmates that were headed to Kenya had a huge change in plans, and will now be joining with out Thailand team! That was a big, but exciting change for many friends of mine! Please keep them all in prayer as well! That is all for the news updates!

So, what is God teaching me in this season? PATIENCE! It is definitely a lesson the Lord is constantly teaching me! It is an area in my life that I have had to grow in quite a bit, so I am continuing to grow in this area now, through this process. The Thailand team has their plane tickets bought, and will be leaving in about two weeks. I am SO excited for them! Our France team is still waiting to buy plane tickets. There are a few logistical things being worked out still, as well as Christine and I needing to fundriase a bit more. It's hard. Hard when you want to leave, you want to go out, and share the gospel, learn a new language, and start ministering overseas. But we're having to wait. And pray. And wait. While it feels like there are constant obstacles in our way, and we are barely inching forward, I am having to be content, and stay joyful. It's hard! But the Lord is always speaking to my heart, reminding me that while it feels like I'm not in the right place, I am right where He wants me to be. That while I feel like I'm stuck in limbo, I'm not. I'm right where I should be. And when I stop trying to see far beyond my sight, take a second, and look around, I realize all that I have right here in front of me. I have been so blessed by my friends that surround me here in Minnesota, people I thought I wouldn't see again until after I got back from internship are able to hang out with me a few times a week. I am able to share in the celebrations, the trials, the joy, and the sadness that they are experiencing. Able to be there for them, and with them. And more importantly, the Lord is teaching me to learn from them, to glean wisdom from them, and love on them while I can. I am blessed to be in a place where I am able to spend time with Jesus. To slow down, and take time to let Him speak to me. To read His word when everything isn't making sense, or I am frustrated beyond belief. And most importantly, He is teaching me all about patience in the times when we're ready to jump out of the gate, but the gate just isn't opening yet. I am also learning to be patient with the people around me, to learn that not everyone thinks the same way that I do. It's a hard lesson to learn.

So be encouraged! If God has you in a place that feels like a waiting room, you aren't the only one! Trust that He has a plan for the time He has you there. Learn from the people He has around you, and never write anyone off as someone you can't learn from, they might be teaching you the biggest lesson of all!

Blessings and Love,

Chrissy


P.S. Here is the link for my fundraiser (mentioned at the beginning of the post!): https://www.facebook.com/events/554631631276534/

Friday, September 6, 2013

As Summer Ends and Autumn Falls....



Well hello again everyone! I'm sorry for the delay in writing, things have been pretty hectic! I am now back in Minnesota, living on campus until we leave for internship. I was able to apply for my visa before I left Florida, which was an interesting experience to say the least... But still a fun little adventure to take! I am pretty sure that I got it, although I can't say that officially yet, at least not until I have it in my hands.

To update you on finances, I am doing incredibly well! I am so excited to see what God does to bring in the rest of the money! I am currently at about 70%, maybe more. I have pretty much all of my set up, pending a few donations, so that takes care of $12,500 of my budget, praise God! As far as my monthly, I currently have $1,100 of it pledged! At this point I still need $700 pledged monthly for thirteen months. That's it! Isn't that wonderful? I'm so excited to see what happens with this last little bit that I need! I figure if I can get 28 people to give $25 a month for thirteen months, everything will be taken care of, so we'll see what happens!




I was able to take a road trip with my best friend Claire to North Dakota last weekend, for our friends' wedding. Manny and Ranee had a celebration of their union in Ranee's hometown of Elgin. It was gorgeous! I never knew North Dakota could be that beautiful! It was such a special time, being friends with both Manny and Ranee, and being able to celebrate with them, I was beyond happy to be there! I love them both very much, and I'm so excited to see what god does in and through them on this journey of their lives! Claire and I also enjoyed our time getting there, and getting back. Things explored were the world's biggest cow, Salem Sue, and the world's biggest buffalo, Dakota Thunder, as well as Frontier Village, or and we can't forget the French Gratitude train car we came across in Bismark! Needles to say, we had a great time! It was such a blessing to spend so much time with some pretty amazing people, who love Jesus with all their hearts!

Well it's starting to cool off here in Minnesota, it's still warm, but not hot. It's so strange to be back here, almost like a dream. There's plenty of new faces, and not so many familiar ones, but I'm excited to get to know some of these new faces! Campus is so lovely this time of year. Almost like a living picture. It's funny, to see everything around me changing, and I feel like I'm waiting to jump into the water, to start this new season in my life. But God has me waiting here, for now, and I know I will do plenty of growing, and searching while I'm here. It's a beautiful time, to reflect, and look forward all at the same time.

So stay tuned for what God is doing! I'm sure it'll continue to be an exciting ride!

Blessings and Love,

Chrissy





Saturday, August 17, 2013

The Heart and Soul...

Hello friends and family! Thank you all for your continued support! First to start off I want to praise God for His faithfulness and unfailing love! I am blessed to serve such and amazing and awesome God! He sends encouragement when I need it most!

So to keep you all updated on fundraising, here is where I'm at: For one time donations I've got about $10,500! Which means that I still need roughly $3,000 still. This is very exciting for me, because I'm almost done with fundraising for one time donations! I'm so much closer to my goal! Now for monthly I'm still sitting at $800, so I still need monthly pledges of $1,000. At this point I am asking that if you are thinking of supporting me financially, please consider a monthly pledge! Every little bit helps, even if it's only $10, it adds up over the 13 months and brings me closer to my goal! Thank you to all who are praying for me, and supporting me, it does not go unnoticed, and is appreciated more than you know!


So this week has been a week of loving encouragement from the Lord. And I really want to share this with you, because He has also brought me back to the heart and soul of the work He is doing in me, and the work that He has called me to.

Early this week I was challenged, by my sister, to really examine what I was doing. And I really took it to the Lord, because honestly I've been so focused on my goals, I haven't stopped to think about what I am giving up and sacrificing by answering the call to be a missionary. I saw before me a life, that I could choose if I wanted to, a life that was simple, and comfortable, and beautiful. A life that was cozy, and lovely. And I wept, because it was a life that I would never know. But then I saw the life I was choosing, and in my heart I felt such a powerful warmth, knowing that I was not wasting my life, or ignoring its purpose. I was answering the call that had been placed on my life, to be a mother to orphans, to show women the strength and beauty that they could only see when looking at themselves through God's eyes. And I wept in pure joy and excitement for what my future held.

Now, I am not trying to say that if you are not doing what I'm doing your life has no meaning. Please, do not think that is what I am saying at all. We are all called to a different purpose. Mothers that raise their children, whether that's while holding down another job as a single mom, or being a stay at home mom that homeschools her children, are just as important to the kingdom of God as I am. We all play a part, and have a purpose in the kingdom of heaven. Moms and dads alike are raising up a generation of believers! Bravo and hats off to you all because you are fulfilling your purpose right there! But my purpose is different. I do feel called to be a wife and mother, but not just a mother to my children, but to children without families. and I am so incredibly excited to do so!

That being said, I began to ask God for help. To get to that place, to go on internship, and begin down the road of being a missionary. And man did He help me! He sent me so much encouragement this week I am blown away! I was able to meet with Tim and Heather Williams, who are very excited to hear what God is doing in and through me, and in this ministry to Marseille! And I was just so incredibly blessed and encouraged by them, and their enthusiasm! They are such a wonderful couple, and I couldn't begin to thank them enough for their encouragement and support, so I pray many blessings over them and their beautiful family!

Then today, I was so blessed in meeting with Pastor Violet. It was a wonderful time of fellowship and encouragement. And I truly began to catch the vision once again of my mission: love. This is not a mission to hurt people, tear them down, or cause anger and strife. I am on a mission to love people, to show them how Christ has loved me. To witness in love, and speak in love to them. It is not a message of hate, or an argument of my God is better than yours, but rather a message of hope, and of love. Now, in saying this, do not confuse love with tolerance of anything and everything, and do not confuse hate with speaking up when something is wrong. I would not be a very good mother if I did not grab my child up as he wandered off into the street, would I? Now he might get upset about it, but once he sees why it was dangerous he knows I did it out of love, to protect him from being hit by a car. It all comes from a heart full of love.

So, thank you, to everyone who has encouraged me this week! Thank you all for being so faithful to God, and His purposes and promises for your lives! Keep pushing on, set aside those things that could have been, and look at the possibilities of what God has for you, I promise you they are so much better than you can begin to imagine!

Love and Blessings,

Chrissy

Friday, August 9, 2013

Pressure of the Ticking Clock

Hello all! Well just to give a quick update: I am currently at about 57% of my funds raised! Yay! This is SO great! But I still have a little ways to go. To put things into money terms here's how it looks: In my one time set up donations I have $9,000 which means that I still need $5,000 towards one time donations. For my monthly pledges I have $800, which means that I still need $1,000 in monthly pledges. Our budget has also been revised since there are less people going now, so my monthly has increased about $100. Prayers and support are highly encouraged and appreciated!

Thank you all for what you have done to help. I am starting to prepare for departure to Minnesota. In other news, our departure date has been pushed back to October 15th. So I will be living on campus until we leave. I will be leaving Florida for Minnesota on August 30th, just in time to make it to the wedding of some very dear friends of mine on September 1st! I am very excited, and happy to be able to stay on campus, and see people I haven't been able to say good bye to before I leave.

I am so excited to be heading to Marseille to do ministry, and learn, and grow. It almost seems unreal because it isn't super close yet, but I know once it's upon me I'll be getting even more excited! I can't wait to see what the Lord does, and how He'll work in this time I'll be spending in France.

Please continue to pray for preparedness, and finances to come in! i appreciate all the support you have already provided! Thank you.

Blessings and Love,

Chrissy

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Remember Who You Are...



Hello all! Well I keep on trekking through fundraising! I'm close to 40% now which is GREAT! But I'm still needing some more funds, majorly in my monthly giving. To give you a better picture of where I'm at, in my one time giving I still need about $7,500; in my monthly I still need $1,400 in monthly pledges. So, if you're reading this, and thinking that you would like to give, please feel free to contact me, or go ahead and check out the "Ways to Give" tab up at the top of this page! I'm really excited to be closer to my goal, and I pray that someone who reads this will be able to bring me even closer! To all those that have already supported, THANK YOU! You have done so much for me in giving towards my internship!







So this past week I watched The Lion King, one of my all time FAVORITE Disney movies! I love that movie a lot. One of my favorite parts of the movie is when Simba sees his father, Mufasa in the clouds, and Mufasa says to him: "Simba you have forgotten me." Simba replies: "No, how could I?" then Mufasa tells him: "You have forgotten who you are and so have forgotten me. Look inside yourself, Simba you are more than what you have become..." so Simba asks: "How can I go back?" and Mufasa tells him: "Remember who you are. You are my son, and the one true king. Remember...who you are.... Remember." and Mufasa fades out. Well if you've seen the Lion King, you know that Simba does go back, to challenge his uncle, and take his place as king of Pride Rock. You also know that it took the urging of his lady lion, Nala, AND the strange, albeit wise shenanigans of Rafiki and finally this interaction with his father's ghost to get him to return.


I always tear up during this scene, because it reminds me so much of our interactions with our heavenly Father. So often we veer off the path he has set us on because we are afraid of letting past decisions, and the fear of others to stop us. Simba felt he couldn't go back because Scar had convinced him it was his fault that Mufasa had died, and Simba feared that all the other lions in the pride would feel the same, that if it hadn't been for Simba, Mufasa would still be alive. I know I have this problem more often than I care to admit. I know that sometimes I'm afraid to walk out in the calling on my life because of my past, and what others will think of me. But God reminds me, in the same way Mufasa reminded Simba, to remember who I am. I am his daughter, and a princess. I am royalty. I should not be afraid to do what He tells me to, I should not fear the outcome of different situations, because I am a daughter of the King, and this King is ruler over ALL things! He KNOWS what will happen when I step out and walk out in the calling over my life, to follow the destiny that has been prepared for me.

So you need to remember this. Remember who you are. Do not ignore your calling, your destiny  because you are afraid of the shadows of your past. God has forgiven you all of your sins, and you are spotless and new. You have a calling on your life, and it is time. Time to answer the call, to follow God's leading, and walk down the road you were destined to walk. It may be dark, and perilous, the night is dark and full of terror, but guess what? The King of Kings, the Lord of Lords, is walking beside you! He will not let you fall, He will guide you through the valley of the shadow of death, and you will not fear, because He is with you. So jump, and trust that He will catch you. Go back, challenge the devil for the land he has taken, and take your rightful place of royalty.


“Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets."

Matthew 7:9-11



Love and Blessings,

Chrissy

Friday, July 19, 2013

The Night is Dark and Full of Terrors....

Shout out to my Game of Thrones fans! Okay so now that I've got your attention with my oh so catchy title, which I will go into later, first thing is first: logistical stuff! I have about 32% of my full budget raised for my internship! Yay! But clearly, I still have a little ways to go... SO that being said, I need to have 90% of my budget by the end of the month, if you were planning to help me out financially: THIS IS IT! Now is the time! See that little tab up there that says "Ways to Give"? Click on it, it'll give you all the info you need to easily go online, fill out a form, and help me get to France! If you are wanting to know more about my finances, there is an info tab called "My Budget" so check that one out as well, and if you want more of a breakdown of my budget, feel free to e-mail me, and I'll send you a spreadsheet. And if you're new here, first of all WELCOME! Second, check out the "Internship" and "Why France?" tabs! You can get the lowdown on what I'm talking about, and what I'll be doing as a missionary intern in France!

 Okay, so about that title. It's a line from Game of Thrones (I watch the show, about to start the books. I'm a pretty big fan.... which you know well if we're friends on facebook or you follow me on pinterest....). But I think it's kind of a true statement in a sense. Often times the dark offers fear, we hear things that may, or may not be the house creaking, but let's examine why it is the night is full of terror (because, well the darkness is kind of obvious...). It's because one of our senses is taken away. We cannot see. Not being able to see, well it's pretty scary if you weren't born without sight! Suddenly our other senses are heightened, and we can hear things that can sound pretty terrifying, we can feel things crawling on our arms... It can be pretty scary! Even if we are safely tucked in our beds,  have five bolt locks on our doors, with a five star crazy awesome alarm system, two dogs, a cat, and weapons beside the bed. We could be totally safe in every way, but take away our sight, and we can start to panic. Well, obviously I have a deeper spiritual point to this, and it's this: blindly following God is just as scary! Sometimes, God will ask us to do things that scare us because we are stepping out into the unknown! Take Moses for instance: God asked him to go to Egypt to tell Pharaoh to release the Israelites. Moses, who was happily married and tending sheep out in the desert, came up with every excuse why he couldn't do it. Can you blame him? God was asking him to go back to the place where he was wanted for murder, talk to the most powerful man in the WORLD at the time, and TELL him to let God's people go. A people who probably weren't his biggest fans considering he had been raised by the very people that had enslaved them and ordered the death of their young sons.Oh, and on top of all that, he was hearing all of this from a burning bush. But God, quite forcefully reminded him, He was God. He created man, He was in charge of the universe, and He was calling Him to this purpose. He knew how it would end, and it was Moses that He wanted, not Aaron, not some other Israelite, but MOSES. How could Moses not obey? But could you imagine how terrified he must have been? Even when God had shown Him His power, Moses could not foresee Pharaoh's reaction, he had to trust that God knew what Pharaoh's reaction would be. He had to trust that God would work everything out.

Well, while I am not about to go tell Pharaoh to let God's people go, God has called me. He has called me to take the gospel to Marseille. So I'm stepping out in faith, in the belief that even though things look unlikely, He WILL provide the finances. It's scary. It's unnerving. But it's exciting! Because now I get to see God work in miraculous ways! And I cannot wait to see what He does, not just for me, but for all of the interns going out this fall! Trusting God is scary, because our sight is taken from us, but realizing that the One that is guiding us knows everything that will happen, that He loves us more than we know, and that He will guide us to what is best for us, well it's like shining a night light in that dark room. We can't see everything, but we can see Him, and we know that He will keep us safe.

I leave you with this: "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your path straight." Proverbs 3:5-6  

Monday, July 8, 2013

We are Never, Ever, EVER Getting Back Together!

So earlier this week I was listening to Taylor Swift (And no, this is not meant to spark some debate of T-Swift haters/lovers, so keep your opinions on her, and her music to yourself...) and the song We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together. If you haven't heard the song, let me break it down for you simply: Taylor tells this guy that she's been on and off with, for what seems like quite a long time, that this is it. There's no more, they are DONE. She describes how they are always breaking up, and getting back together, but this time, she's telling him, WE ARE NEVER EVER EVER GETTING BACK TOGETHER! She calls up her friend, and tells her how everything went down, and how annoyed she is. Anyway, the title of the song, pretty much explains it all.
Now, there is a point to all of this, so bear with me! I have heard this song probably a hundred times, and at first, I hated it. Then it was always stuck in my head, and then I liked it. Now, I just listen to it if it comes on the radio, but not purposely. But let me tell you, when I heard it the other day, oh man did I need to hear it. Here is the point to my story of this song, and my long story short: We NEED to be saying this to sin! This past Sunday we had an excellent sermon on breaking free of the chains of sin, which is the similar conclusion I came to when listening to this song in a new and different light. Sin, in many ways, is that ex-boyfriend that we are always getting back together with. We know it's bad for us, that the relationship is going NOWHERE good, and we just keep hurting ourselves. But every time we break up, we begin to miss the way it made us feel, the fun we might have had, or the people we participated in it with. Sometimes, sin will entice us back, calling us up to whisper in our ear how much it misses us, how much it wants us back. And we cave, finding ourselves back in that toxic relationship. Oh, we know nothing can come of it, and our friends, even the Holy Spirit, will remind us what we're doing is wrong, but we are stuck in this cycle, when what we need to tell sin is: We are never, ever, EVER getting back together!
Lately, I've been in this particular battle with doubt. Doubting I'm doing the right thing. Doubting that God will do what He said He would, and provide. Doubting I'm making the right decision. And that is exactly what came to mind when I heard that song. I could really feel the Lord changing the words for me in such a way that I needed to realize: I needed to break up with doubt. For good. Later that night, I had my quiet time with Him, and continued that conversation. He showed me what His word said; He reminded me of Abraham. How Abraham's faith was tested when the Lord asked Him to sacrifice Isaac, and Abraham agreed. Without question, he took his son to Mount Moriah, and trusted the Lord would provide. And we all know the story, the Lord provided a sacrifice so that Isaac, Abraham's son, would not have to be sacrificed. Abraham named the place "The LORD Will Provide". Wow. How can we argue with that?
Time and again, the Lord proves Himself faithful, in His word, and in my life. So I knew, I had to break up with doubt. I needed to end it, we were DONE. Since that decision, my life has felt less stressful, worry is gone too! I have had multiple people confirm what the Lord has told me, and I have become so much more confident in not only going to France, but in knowing that the Lord is going to do this Himself, in His timing. At this point, it would be a miracle, but I don't doubt for a second that He will perform one. The Lord has encouraged me with these verses from Romans, and I want to share them with you now,

He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future,nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:32,37-39

So if you are struggling with sin, or with doubt, break up with it! Tell it that you are never, ever, EVER getting back together! Through the strength of the Holy Spirit, and the love of Christ, you can do it! When we were adopted into the family of God, we were raised from the dead, and we are no longer bound by the chains of sin, we have been made free in Christ, but we need to make the effort! Faith without works is dead, so know, and trust that where you fall short, God will carry you the rest of the way.

You, my brothers, were called to be free, but do not use your freedom to indulge in sinful nature; rather, serve one another in love. The entire law is summed up in a single command: "Love your neighbor as yourself."

Galatians 5:13 & 14

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

It is a Truth Universally Acknowledged....

That all things worth having are not always easy to get. Fundraising is HARD! It's a daily struggle to remember that God is in control, and that He has called me to this moment, and to this life. Staying positive is a battle that I have to fight, and sometimes, I feel as thought I'm fighting a losing battle. I say all this because I feel I have to be honest, things are not always rainbows and butterflies. But I will say this: I am happy every day. God sends someone every day to encourage me, or to share Him with. He reminds me that I am not abandoned, that I am not alone, and that He is and AWESOME God. He can do anything. Even give me all of the money I need to go on internship.

So in remembering this, I remember you. My readers. And if you are out there, reading this, struggling, worrying, and scared, remember every day, God is on your side. He will never leave of forsake you. I know,  believe me, I know, it's easy to say that when you aren't feeling worried. Well I'm saying it, and I just spent the past paragraph spilling my guts about how I have been feeling the same way. But even more important than that, GOD said it to you. In His word. He is the most reliable source of truth that we have, because He is the truth. So when you begin to worry, stop. Close your eyes (Unless of course you're driving.), take a deep breath, talk to God, tell him how you're feeling, and then listen. Hear Him, because He will speak. He will comfort you, and remind you of the promises He has made.

So all this to say, I'm afraid, because the Lord has asked me to step out into the unknown. But I am fighting the fear, with the help of the Holy Spirit, the word of God, and sheer will because of my knowledge of the faithfulness of God. I will leave you with the verse that has so encouraged me: "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6

Blessings and Love,

Chrissy

Saturday, June 8, 2013

Friends, Surgeries, and Fear....

Hello all!

Well it's been a little while, mostly because of a very hectic, crazy schedule! The beginning of June has come and gone, and decisions are being made, about how to proceed. This post will probably have a ton of prayer requests in it, so stay tuned for those, as well as other fun little tidbits about life these past few months.

Where to start? Well, Caitlyn came to visit. Let's start there. Caitlyn is one of my dearest, closest friends from school. She is bright, bubbly, fun, and loud! I love this girl! She came all the way from West Virginia to stay for almost a week, to relax, vacation, and see the beach. She also came at a wonderful time, since there were other things going on here at home.

1.) Surgery. Mom was having surgery on her intestines to remove a cyst. The biopsy results have not come back yet, so stay tuned for those, as well. Also please pray for continual healing, and that everything would come back fine. The surgery went very well though, and they didn't have to do an invasive surgery which was a favorably answered prayer! Thank you God!

2.) Fear. I have to admit, on the fundraising front, I am not doing as swimmingly as I'd hoped. Money is coming in. And thank a thousand times to all whom have provided said money! It is more encouraging than you know to see a few dollars here and there being donated! But, this brings me to prayer request two, please pray about finances, as well as divine appointments for me, so that all the funds will be raised in time for me to a. get my visa. and b. GO! It is very discouraging sometimes to hit these roadblocks where you feel like you are constantly questioning if you're headed in the right direction. So also pray for guidance, wisdom, and words from the Lord for me, about these things.

All this to say, that despite everything going on in my life, it was a joy having Caitlyn here! She made my day brighter, and definitely made my whole family laugh on more than one occasion! She was an encouragement to me, and to my mom. I love her a lot, and I'm super thankful that I got to have her here!

Now, to all my Port Saint Lucie followers, I will be doing a dinner for fundraising soon, so stay tuned for that as well! The details will be on facebook, so check those out soon! If you like to donate, click the link below.

https://www.youcaring.com/mission-trip-fundraiser/chrissy-s-marseille-missionary-internship/63019

Thank you all for all your support, and interest in my endeavors! Catch you later!

Love and Blessings,

Chrissy
Caitlyn and I
 at the St. Lucie River

Sunday, May 19, 2013

And so we begin...

Well, here we are. I'm getting ready to go to Marseille, France as a missionary intern for 16 months. This is here to keep you all informed, and updated on everything going on. I'll be posting bi-weekly to keep everyone on top of what's going on in my life, and eventually, my time in Marseille, and the ministries we are doing there! 

       So here's the intro to it all: It all began with a call. When I was young, the Lord called me to missions, and through trials, and events in my life that drove me away from that calling, I have found my back here, to Bethany College of Missions. I've spent the last two years learning about theology, worship, spiritual warfare, relating to other cultures, and much, much more! Now it's about that time in the program where I get to put all that I've learned, from the Lord, and my teachers, into practice! I'll be going on my internship to Marseille in September. This summer will be spent preparing, spiritually, as well as fundraising for the money I'm going to need. 

       So join me in this awesome adventure God is taking me on! I'm excited to share all of this with you! Please, keep me in your prayers, and if you'd like to give financially to my trip check out the Ways to Give tab! Thanks for checking things out, God bless!

Love and Blessings,

Chrissy